The Art of Giving too Much
People used to ask me why is it so hard for me to loosen up myself and emotionally accept someone in my life or why am I so picky in terms of finding a boy to try to fall in love with. Well, first of all, the very most important thing that people need to know is: I AM TERRIFIED. Yes, I'm scared to fall in love with the wrong person like I once did. It wasn't like I'm not ready, I'm actually so ready and I have no problem in this kind of commitment but only if you are the right person. Let me tell you this if I love you, I'm going to love you so much more than you deserve and I'm willing to give my whole heart even if I know that I won't get the same in reciprocate. I know I sound so pathetic, so stupid, and desperate but it is just who I naturally am. And because of knowing myself being this way, I keep holding myself whenever I started to like someone. I'm trying to keep myself from easily giving my whole emotion filled with the thou