THE NAMELESS MOONCHILD

    Looking back to my high school life there was once a time where I thought love was terribly and utterly overrated. I would roll my eyes in exasperation upon hearing the very word. I would even sigh at couples swinging their intertwined hands in public, shaking my head at their naive ingenuousness                                                     Love didn't need to be woven into the storyline of every movie, and it certainly didn't need to be the focus of seemingly every song on the radio. But maybe I couldn't fathom society's absurd emphasis on this strange emotion because I had never truly experienced it for myself. Until he came along. I couldn't remember when does it happen or how does it happen. You can't see it coming, but it does makes you unsteady, makes you question everything you believe, making you infuriatingly an inecxplicab...

People used to ask me why is it so hard for me to loosen up myself and emotionally accept someone in my life or why am I so picky in terms of finding a boy to try to fall in love with. Well, first of all, the very most important thing that people need to know is: I AM TERRIFIED.   Yes, I'm scared to fall in love with the wrong person like I once did. It wasn't like I'm not ready, I'm actually so ready and I have no problem in this kind of commitment but only if you are the right person.        Let me tell you this if I love you, I'm going to love you so much more than you deserve and I'm willing to give my whole heart even if I know that I won't get the same in reciprocate.  I know I sound so pathetic, so stupid, and desperate but it is just who I naturally am.  And because of knowing myself being this way, I keep holding myself whenever I started to like someone. I'm trying to keep myself from easily giving my whole emotion filled w...