THE NAMELESS MOONCHILD

People used to ask me why is it so hard for me to loosen up myself and emotionally accept someone in my life or why am I so picky in terms of finding a boy to try to fall in love with. Well, first of all, the very most important thing that people need to know is: I AM TERRIFIED.   Yes, I'm scared to fall in love with the wrong person like I once did. It wasn't like I'm not ready, I'm actually so ready and I have no problem in this kind of commitment but only if you are the right person.        Let me tell you this if I love you, I'm going to love you so much more than you deserve and I'm willing to give my whole heart even if I know that I won't get the same in reciprocate.  I know I sound so pathetic, so stupid, and desperate but it is just who I naturally am.  And because of knowing myself being this way, I keep holding myself whenever I started to like someone. I'm trying to keep myself from easily giving my whole emotion filled with the thou

9 Hey you, Remember when we used to have each other? The bads and goods we've been through together The laughter, crying and holding each other's hands The promises, gifts, and kisses that never ends Have you still thought of that? Hey you, Can I come around this evening? I may not know how to hold you close anymore But when you held out your arms and I was a cracked porcelain We look at each other as we stood at the precipice and I know once I fell, I'd never stop But we were always meant to say goodbye. Hey you, You know what's weird is you feel like both parties  and the person you want to talk is out of reach and you are mad at them for changing at all But somehow you want them close Even though you have to let go and I know I love you so, love you enough to let you  C.x

There is always these odd things about love that couldn't be defined properly One day you walked into your favourite restaurant and there he is sitting on your favourite spot. Against the cherry blossom wall, sipping on his cold iced coffee and there he is It is as simple as that. As easy as that The wild butterflies finally free again because you can feel them inside of you. It was like what he did on the first time. Or there would be someone else just like him. Then he would turn to look at you and it would all BEGIN AGAIN You see my dear, Love appears like particular blue in the sky or as a song on the radio It doesn't came with crashing waves or thunderbolts when it finds you It drowns you slowly like a warm winter sunrise where the promise of summer shines within Even is he's made of cigarettes and you're such as sweet as strawberry It will always make a great attraction, strong connection along with a desire A DESIRE TO

I know how it feels, sitting there trying to figure out what you could have done differently. Playing scenarios over and over in your head. Analyzing the world trying to figure out the exact moment things went wrong. Questioning yourself and whether it was all worth the wait. I mean, why isn’t your love enough? Why doesn’t this person see how amazing you are and how much you have to offer? Why are you chasing this person just to get things work when there almost pointless? Oh wait, that is the pointless thing that I was talking about?  I t’s waiting for something that might never happen. It’s looking at someone who doesn’t  see  you. It’s thinking about someone day and night while you probably never cross their mind. It’s looking at your phone hoping they’d text you or call you as they call someone else. It’s reaching out to them with so much fervor as they respond with indifference. A One-sided love. Torture, battlefield, and heartbreak as it's definition. Do people a